Emotional hangover

This post should probably have a warning on it.  To quote Fergie: "It's personal." 

Emotional hangover: When your emotions are fluctuating more than the stack of a degenerate getting his/her gambool on, you frequently end up with a pounding headache and the general feeling that you have been hit by a truck.

What do you do when 5 months after you have the divorce conversation and 3 months after he moves out, you realize that your ex is still your best friend?  The one person in the world who knows you the best?  Even better than your parents know you?  Even better than you probably know yourself (because after all everyone is in denial to a certain extent about their own strengths and weaknesses)?  That you both still care about each others' well being (even if love isn't there anymore)?  I guess it's hard to ignore 9 years of history, including 7 years of cohabitation. 

Newly single, you realize all the ways that being in a relationship, especially a long-term one, makes you dependent.  You forget how to cope with a lot of stuff that you used to be able to deal with easily because you are used to having someone else there.

Jeff and I had our first real conversation since November tonight when
I got home over IM.  It was long and not particularly fun (that sounds bad, but I guess I mean it was somewhat painful to get a life pep talk from my ex), but
hopefully at some point we will be able to be in the same room without one of us getting all off-kilter.  Cause even though I don't regret the decision, it's tough not being able to share my thoughts and feelings with someone who understands me better than I understand myself.

In the meantime, I hope tomorrow I don't feel like I got hit by a truck.

I like free stuff

I just found out I have two free week nights at Harrah's in AC anytime in May.  So I booked a room for 5/20-22 - when school will be done (other than grading some finals).  If anyone wants to join - let me know.

A Trueism:

Sometimes when people try to make you feel better, they end up making you feel worse, and then you feel even worse on top of that because you know they were trying to make you feel better and you know that they know they made you feel worse. 

That sounds like a Deep Thought by Jack Handey.

Sushi!

There have been quite a few things I haven't blogged about recently, but I can't spend my whole life blogging.  Blevins has been after me ("Why did you blog about our degenerate outing to go see 'The Grand?'  Why didn't you blog about going to the O's game?" etc etc.) to post these things, but you might notice that he does not get a link on his name because HE DOES NOT HAVE A BLOG.  ;)  Simple fact is, this is a super busy time of year for me, and blogging about everything I've done has just fallen by the wayside while I try to get other stuff done.

I love sushi.  My freshman year a bunch of us headed up to the old Cafe Asia in Dupont for happy hour (and they never carded...though we got kicked out one time when Vinnie started bringing in his own vodka) every Thursday afternoon.  Then later some of my best female friends and I had a standing sushi date every Sunday at this place in Rosslyn (which sadly no longer exists).  Alexis, Jessica, Erica, and I would show up to our old sushi place (Appetizers Plus - what a name) every Sunday from 1998-2002, stuff ourselves at their Sunday sushi buffet, have lots of crazy girl talk, and then go watch Sex and the City.  Even after I moved out to the burbs in the Summer of 2000, I still made the Sunday trek for sushi and gossip.  Ah, the good old days.  More recently Alexis and I used to meet up at Uni pretty frequently when she worked across the street, but even that has fallen by the wayside since I've been in school and since she took a new job.  Erica moved to Rhode Island and got married.  I haven't seen Alexis or Jess in forever even though we periodically send notes over the interwebs.

But anyways, Anne and I had planned to go to sushi happy hour at Sushi Uni in Dupont tonight, but by the time I got done with sections at 5pm I was sweaty and tired and didn't want to travel all the way down to DC.  I asked her if there was someplace closer to home that we could go to and she suggested this place in Laurel which is literally around the corner from my house.  So to Asahi we went.

Showed up and ordered our sushi on the little card things.  Anne and I actually had a conversation about how whenever we order sushi our eyes are bigger than our stomaches but we proceeded to order a ton anyways.  As it turns out, the waitress took a liking to us or something and proceeded to bring us a salad with ginger dressing, miso soup, some roasted veggies in a sweet and spicy sauce, and some kind of fried rice dish.  When we protested that we didn't order all of that (thinking she had brought us someone else's order) she told us it was on the house.  Wow - OK.

So then our sushi shows up on two giant platters and we realize we are never going to be able to finish it all.  We both put a good size dent in it before giving up.  I have to say, they have some really good and different types of rolls, especially for a sushi place in a strip mall in the middle of route 1.

We got our bills and then the waitress brought us out more free food - two things of ice cream: 1 green tea and one red bean.  Never being ones to say no to ice cream, especially when it is free, Anne and I had several bites of each before deciding we needed to leave before our stomaches exploded, seagull-style.  The ice cream was way better than the mochi we used to get at Appetizers Plus, but nowhere near as good as the fried banana goodness that they had at Cafe Asia.  But again, it was free, so I am not complaining.

The next few days are gonna be super busy.  I gotta get my RelPol paper in order tonight and tomorrow.  I am supposed to play on the GVPT Guerillas (we are so clever, huh?) kickball team tomorrow, plus there is pink at night.  Pops' on Saturday and I'm supposed to meet with/call Melissa to give her feedback on her paper at some point Saturday.  Have to prepare for the RelPol debate on Monday.  Gotta get a draft of my Participation paper done before Wednesday.  Calgon take me away.....!

Rant of the Day

I am sitting in the grad lab prepping for my sections this afternoon when Jesse reminded me of one of my number one pet peeves.

I am a universal donor (O-) in terms of blood donation.  BUT since I have lived in the UK for more than 3 months since 1979 I can never donate.  It's not even like I can donate 10 years after or 20 years after.   It's just a permanent blacklist from donating forever and ever, amen.

In the DC area where many people travel abroad for extended periods of time, this has to cut into their donor base.

What is the reason?  There is no blood test for mad cow disease (ah, maybe that is my problem!).  I guess it's good that they are being safe, but don't you think after, say 20 years, the person would have figured out if they had mad cow or not???

A good night

So after getting some work done in the afternoon, I decided to go over and play Tim's 10/20 HOE game.  He was running a tourney at 7, but I'm really not much of a tournament player (though I'm getting better), so I ended up getting there around 7:30. 

Lo and behold, the tourney had not yet started AND it was a HORSE tourney, not a NLHE tourney like I thought.  It was only a $50 buy in, so sign me up!  I ended up winning the whole ting. (Hooray!)

Then I ended up getting the last seat in the cash game which had ended up as a 5-10-15 HOE game.  After 4-5 hours in that game I was more than doubled and getting sleepy, so I called it quits and made the short drive home.  Where else but poker can you make $100/hr?

I proved to myself I can play limit when 1) not tilting and 2) not playing like a dumbass because I am bored.

Wednesdays are a good night for me (got nothing to do), so I have a feeling I'm gonna be playing Tim's game more often.  (Plus Greg and I got to make dolphin-esque jokes about pterodactyls).

I Bet You

I just downloaded the first season of "I Bet You" on iTunes, a tv show starring pro poker players Antonio Esfandiari and Phil Laak.  I heard about this show awhile ago, but it's on a station I don't get.  Basically they walk around making prop bets on things.  Anyways, I was pretty excited to find it on iTunes.  I think I'm going to get a season pass for Season 2 which just started.

I've watched the first few episodes and so far it's actually a really funny show.  Definite recommend, especially to anyone who is a degenerate.  Download season 1 episodes from iTunes here.  You can download one episode from each season for free.